Reflecting on 2014 & Goals for 2015

Lifestyle | Jan 06, 2015

As a pregnant woman in my second trimester I’m going through insomnia almost every night and it always starts around 3 am and lasts till about 5 am. I randomly wake up and can not go back to sleep for the life of me. It happened when I was pregnant with Gio too. At first I hated it. Who wants to be up when everyone else is knocked out? But I have found that I do some of my best thinking at night. This is when I get all kinds of creative ideas in my head, or start analyzing my life: my journey, the past, where I am, where I want to get, things I want to accomplish, things I want to work on and so on. So this blog post is more like a talk I’m having with myself, to get more clarity and perhaps help you do the same, if you ever find yourself in the same boat as I.

I turn 28 years old in just a matter of hours. That just sounds so old, but I know it isn’t. Matter of fact, it’s just the beginning. When you are in your teen years you can’t wait to be in your 20’s. At least that was the case for me. There was something about being 20 something that made me feel like “oh I’m going to be a grown woman by then”. But as I near my 30’s I realize the 20’s are such experimental years. This is the time to figure out who you are (even though that’s more of a lifetime quest as we are constantly changing with each experience we have). These are the years of trial and error, learning who is really your friend, the kind of person you want to be with, the kind of person you are in a relationship, the kind of relationship you want, the kind of career you want, trying out all kinds of jobs in hopes of landing one that is financially secure, yet always dreaming of having your own business but not knowing exactly what or how to get there, etc. I speak for my own self as I mention these things. This may have not been you in your 20’s. But it was very much me. I experimented with things, people, relationships, jobs, fashion trends, looks, travel, and in all of it, I learned more and more about myself. My challenge is that I tend to be very hard on myself. So it’s a lot easier for me to pick out the negative things I want to fix, rather than point out the great things I’ve accomplished or have throughout these past few years. I’ve gotten a lot better at that, mainly with the help of my husband who’s always, always, and i mean always pointing out all the great qualities I have. So he’s made me feel like it’s OKAY to acknowledge the great things and the great person that you are, without letting what you consider failures to take over and make you feel like you haven’t done much or you need to do so much more.

In my early 20’s I made a ton of mistakes. Heck, I expect to make a ton more for the years to come…but different kinds of mistakes. There used to be a time I was so aggressive, so ready to argue with anyone that had anything sideways to say to me, let alone if they messed with my friends. I would practically lose it. There were times I literally fought men if I felt like they disrespected my friends when we went out to the club. Yea back then I was doing it for loyalty but as I have gotten older, wiser, and am now a mother, I realize loyalty doesn’t have to be proven that way. Matter of fact being put in those situations alone is just a thing of the past. Been there, done it, I had fun, but on to another stage in life. I’m sure people from high school would be shocked at the college version of me. And those that knew me in college would be shocked at the person I evolved to in the few years after it. And all of them combines would be even more shocked at the person I am today. Not because I have changed as a person, because my heart has always and will always be the same, but because my actions now reflect what’s inside. I have gotten to a place and age in life where I no longer feel the need to please others, or give in to social pressure, or fight others to keep the love and friendship of my friends, or change everything I’m about to make the person I’m dating happy, and so on. These are all things I’ve experienced and been through. And now I’m in a better place. I am so much more accepting of who I am inside. I’m not ashamed to finally be who I’ve always wanted to be or have envisioned myself as. And I have so much to do still to become who I now see myself in the future as.

You can tell I’ve been talking to myself too damn much because I’m getting all deep and probably not even making sense. But if you ever go through this, like I do, know that you’re not alone. Self reflecting is a great thing! It helps you see things better and gives you a clear vision of where you are trying to go. I look back at 2014 and boy was it a busy year! So much happened! Great things, bad things, good people, bad people, wins and loses, and quite frankly I’m excited for 2015. Every year, on the last day of the year my husband and I make a list of goals we would like to accomplish the next year. It’s a cool and fun exercise. 365 days later you won’t remember a thing you listed so it’s eye opening to read what your goals were a year ago. Some of those things can be totally irrelevant to you now. I remember one year I had put on my list I wanted to have 50 pairs of louboutins. Okay call me materialistic, but that’s where my mind was at the time. My priorities shifted and 3 years later I could care less how many loubs are in my closet. And as much as some of you shoe lovers will hurt when I say this…I just have to admit shoes just don’t do it for me anymore. Not the way they used to…you know, that unhealthy obsession I had with them to where I would literally choose not to pay rent just to have another pair of heels? Yea! That was STUPID. I love shoes yes. They’re fun, funky, girly, sexy, you name it. But I’m not losing any sleep wondering about my next pair. And I’m happy and proud of myself for that. Anyways, that list of goals every year has dramatically changed. This year we haven’t done our list yet. Somewhere between my pregnancy nausea, a small baby running around, a house full of kiddos to maintain, kids needing to be picked up/dropped of, in laws visiting, etc etc etc, we haven’t had the time to. But I think that’s good because I haven’t had the time to really think what I want for this year.

I guess I’m going to start with things about me that I would like to work on or change. Last year and the years before that I used to be affected by what others said or thought of me. This started happening around the time my instagram profile started getting some friction. Never before that did I encounter strangers speaking negatively about me. So all of a sudden the negativity or criticism I got online got to me. I didn’t know how to handle it. Two years ago, when I was pregnant with Gio I had really really hard time understanding it and it started to make me question my own self. I started wondering if I was the person some portrayed me to be? If I wasn’t worthy of the life I had? If I was just lucky or did I deserve anything? Was my husband for me for love or because we had a baby? I struggled. I suffered. I cried for nights and days. I admit to it now because I’m strong enough to handle it and I have learned to cope with it all. I get asked “how do I do it?” because people can read all the comments others leave me and I can tell that some of them get really aggravated when they read some of the things people say to me. They wonder how I don’t lose it or go off. Boy did I use to! But here’s how I see it: you are either the type of person that gets weak from it and surrender to it all, or you get stronger, grow a thicker skin and push through. I was both of those. At first I got weak, didn’t know what to do, got scared because I had a child growing inside of me and was afraid the stress and sadness would cause me to miscarriage. I got rid of everything and went away just to get a peace of mind. And the entire time I focused on me, my family, my relationship. Then I gave birth to my son and that changed everything. I saw light! There is nothing, and I mean nothing more important than the life you give birth to. There is nothing that can make me lose sleep the way my son coughing or having a slight fever at night can! I finally learned that people, whether those you know or complete strangers, come from all walks of life. You never know what they’ve been through, what they have experienced, the kind of upbringing they had, who raised them, the love or lack of they received when growing up, what relationships they have been in as adults, who hurt them, who loved them, what their current life is like, if they are financially ok or struggling to pay their bills, if they feel pretty or ugly, fat or skinny, do they feel alone or are they surrounded by love, are they hungry or do they not miss meals, do they have a sickness they’re fighting or are full of life and health…you just never know. Even those you think you know so well could be feeling emotions or things we can never think of or know about. So I started realizing that with so much uncertainty out there when it comes to people around us or even online, you are bound to taste bits and pieces of what they experience daily. Someone’s happiness or sadness comes out in one way or another. People have different ways of coping with it. Some like to write about it, some like to talk, some like to forget it all and ignore it, others like to belittle those they want to be like, some like to bully, etc etc. We have different ways of trying to feel better about whatever it is that we are lacking in life.

So once you truly understand that you will find yourself no longer upset or mad. I am happy to have gotten to a point where literally nothing someone tells me is going to bug me unless I feel that way myself. Say someone says I’m a bad mother…well I know good and God damn well I’m not. Soooo thank you for your input but I know it isn’t valid. Moving on. It’s human nature to get bothered by such things in general. You could get hundreds of great, amazing, positive feedback from people, and there’ll be that one nasty one that’ll leave you wanting to punch someone. But why? That used to be me! Whenever I get tempted now…I just picture that person in a sad world and how unhappy they must be. Then I genuinely feel bad. If they let me, i would befriend them. I would help them. I’ve been there before and I’m grateful for those that gave me a hand. I would be happy to do the same. This life is too short. There’s no point in being evil. There’s no satisfaction in it. There’s no rewards from it. The only reason I even blog or have a page is because I like sharing my experiences, learning from others and maybe helping someone out there who’s in the same spot I’ve been!

So 2014 was a learning year for me. I hope every year is. But I feel that it taught me how to be stronger and how to have confidence in me, who I really am, and why I am where I am. It’s important to realize the type of person you are. If you are not happy with it, denial is the worst thing for you for you will be that same person you are denying the following year. Accept whatever it is that you don’t like and change it. It takes just that simple decision and you can turn it all around. Screw your past. Screw yesterday! Today is a different day. Tomorrow is a brand new blank page. Didn’t like the way you wrote on the previous page? Write better today! No one can impact your feelings and your emotions but you. And I think this is the hardest thing to master in life. So my goal for 2015 is to practice it more and get to a point where I no longer have to think about this, but that it just naturally comes to me. It’s a mental exercise but one that can change your life forever.

2014 was the first year of my motherhood. A 27 year old first time mom: scary! I think about every single day, month, milestone I hit with Gio, things I accomplished that I was so happy about (because I was truly scared going into this. I felt like I was going to be one of those moms that accidentally dropped their baby). And I feel that I did so much better than I thought. There were times I freaked out more than Gio himself, say when he bit his tongue that one time when I was feeding him outside, or how the first time he got fever and he was so motionless and wanted to be held and nothing more…let’s just say I have learned to do better around those times. I was a wreck. You couldn’t tell if I was the one with fever or Gio. But these were all first time experiences that helped me so much and today I am more comfortable as a mother. in 2015 I want to try more fun activities with Gio; get more involved locally and take him places. I am scared of another baby coming, I have to say. My attention is 100% focused on Gio every day, and with a small baby around, if I am anything like I was with Gio when he was first born, I fear that I might not give my older son any attention. But I know that’s not me. So then I start wondering “how the hell AM I going to do this”? Do I need to hire help? Everyone and their momma keeps telling me I need a nanny. They’ve been saying that ever since Gio was born, or even before that. Part of me gets it…okay yea it would help to get a minute to yourself and take a shower without worrying if my son woke up already and is crying. I swear every time I shower the water sounds like Gio screaming to me. So I immediately run out. I’ve learned to take 2 min showers. But the other part of me is selfish. I don’t want a stranger spending quality time with my son. Why? I can see if I had to go to work. But if I don’t, why not spend every single minute with him? Who’s hurting? If they’re worried about me…screw it. I’ll be okay. I don’t know a mother that suffered from taking care of her own kid. And if they’re worried about him somehow needing a professional to take care of him…welllllll that’s a whole other thing! I think people just do it because they can. I always get the “you can afford it. lucky you so just do it”. I think it’s amazing if you can do it. Some moms are comfortable with that and wouldn’t mind a few hours or some days a week of a break and to do what they want to do without having to worry about a baby. If that’s you, more power to you. I’m glad that you are able to not lose yourself in all of this. I personally cannot do that. I’m one of those “I had a kid so my life is just going to have to wait” kind of person. A child to me has always been THE most important thing in life I could ever do/have. So I put nothing before it. And that’s not healthy either. So my goal for 2015 is to find a way to take care of my two little ones. I don’t have to get help per se, but say on the weekend or on the nights we have the kiddos, I’ll be more open to perhaps let them take charge and get a break for myself, or my hubby and I. Maybe I will be open to hiring someone for a few hours a week to help me with them while I’m there? I don’t know. Haven’t figured it out yet. But it is something I’m going to force myself to be more open minded to.

Another thing I did in 2014 (and most of 2013) was be a stay at home mom. I have never been jobless. There were times when I’d fill out applications or forms, say at the airport, when we would go through customs. There would be a question asking what my profession was…I felt so empty. I had never experienced that before. Sure I’ve had tons of useless jobs, minimum wage type jobs back in my college days, and I’ve also had the really good paying ones, salary better than some doctors etc. But it’s not the salary part of it that made me feel awkward. It’s the emptiness of it all. I had nothing to put on that line. I had no title. That made me feel sad. I often talked to my husband about it. When I was younger, way younger, living in Albania, I always thought I was going to be married to someone who had a good job and I’d be cooking and cleaning at home. That’s kind of what I saw in my family. That’s how they did it over there (things have changed now). Then in my college days I envisioned myself as this powerful, successful business woman who needed no man to live the life she wanted and I’ve always wanted the finer lifestyle. I still do. I have no shame in it. Shoot, makes me happy to have a nice house and nice car etc etc. Sure, they don’t hold the key to my happiness but I like having those things. I digress. Point is, I had always wanted that for myself. Before I met my husband I had such a good career. I was making great money, sure I never saved any of it LOL, but I felt good knowing I could do it and did it myself. Then we met, clicked, fell in love, travelled, got pregnant, married, BAM. I’m all of a sudden a housewife with no job. That doesn’t really make me feel good. I bitch about it to him every now and then. Then I think about how obsessed I am with my son, and how much I love every single minute with him, how I love to scrub the house (I have a slight clorox fetish), and how I like to cook and make dinner ready for everyone when they come home, etc…would I miss those things if I go back to work? Would I be unhappy then that all of a sudden I don’t get to do those things? So what’s better? Or is it that people, or rather me, can never be satisfied with what they have and always think the grass is greener on the other side. The last few nights I’ve been up thinking about it all. I figured there has got to be a balance. There has got to be something I can do to make me feel like I’m still ME and am doing what I have always wanted as far as the career me goes while still being a great wife, mom, and enjoying all of the family time. I have come to the conclusion that as long as I find something I love and am passionate about, that I can do it part time, and maybe from home. So in 2015 I have made it a goal to launch an online children’s boutique. It combines my passion for fashion with my love and passion for children. I love dressing my son and shopping for him. There are such cute options out there but so many of them are hard to find. So my goal is to bring it to the mommies that follow me and make it easier for them to dress their babies fashionably. It’s just something small that makes us mommies happy. I look forward to putting a cute outfit on Gio and taking pictures of me. I feel like my baby is modeling or something haha. So if there are other mommies who feel like me, who barely shop for themselves and only do it for their kiddos, then they will like this 🙂

I plan to do it from home. Just me. Part time, for fun. I plan on being one of those stores people have relationships with and feel like family. I plan on emailing the customers myself and having conversations with them about the products or whatever they need. In short, I don’t see this as a money making type of business, but rather something that gives me joy and makes me feel productive and a business woman at the end of the day. So the last few weeks I’ve done a lot of researching, trying to find all the brands I want to bring to my store, how to connect with them, setting up a name and website, logos, designs, blah blah blah. I’m getting closer though. Next week I’ll be traveling to Turkey for a tradeshow where hopefully a lot of these brands attend and I can make some good contacts. I want the best of the best. I’m not going to settle for cheap shit just to sell something. That’s just not what I’m in it for. So this mommy, her baby and her other baby in her tummy are going to travel alone to attend this 3 day show 🙂 Hubby thinks I’m nuts, but hey, I’m a woman on a mission. I really am excited about it all and it’s my next project. Not that I needed one…hell, I have the new nursery to fix, a brand new room for Gio (can’t seem to find a floor bed for him anywhere so I think I’m going to just make one…wish me luck), maternity shoots coming up, a baby shower, ohhh let’s not forget BIRTH of my next baby, FML. I turn everything into projects. I make a list of things I want, pictures of inspiration, bookmark all sites i’m going to shop from, etc. So needless to say the online shop it’s every bit of excitement I need and want. I think it’s the best platform for me to unleash my talent. (read that in a sarcastic, overly dramatic way! LOL).

Aren’t you tired of reading? Heck, I’m tired of writing. But I’m wired at the same time. There is so much to think of, plan, research. I ordered this book a few days ago called “How To Start Your Own Online Retail Empire” and I finished it all today in two hours. Bookmarked things, made notes, made a list of things I learned from it that I had not thought of. I have another book to go through but maybe I’ll read that on the plane, on my way to Turkey. I just want to do everything right. I want the site to be cute, user friendly; I want pretty dresses and cute sets for boys; I want the mommies to feel happy when they get on there, to feel good about it; I want the shipping to be fast, and the packaging to be great. I don’t want those cheap plastic bags some businesses use to ship things to me. I want it to be and feel luxurious. Well, all that requires time, effort, money, and RESEARCH. I’ve been spending two days alone (nights only cuz I don’t get much time during the day) trying to find shipping packaging companies that will do custom work for not such crazy prices. It’s impossible to find any! If you know of any…feel free to share! I’ll be grateful forever!

I plan on blogging about my entire experience with opening an online business and where/how/which sites/services/etc I use along the way to make it happen. I know NOONE likes sharing these things for fear that someone else will start the same thing and bring competition. I don’t care for that. Let’s all do it. I don’t mind! I am doing this for my own happiness. If you follow the same step and do the same thing, more power to you. Do what makes you happy. We can both do it!

And lastly, my goal is to give more. Whether it be money, donations, my time, my help, my knowledge or expertise in whatever you need, I want to help more. It makes me feel good. It makes my day. It gives me positivity and great energy. Giving is never for those who receive it but rather those that give it. I rarely talk or mention those I have helped in the past, or those I continuously help. I don’t do it for that purpose. I do it because a. I can and b. I want to c. someone helped me in the past d. i like to pay it forward and e. I believe in what you give, you get. I want to do more this year. I started with cleaning my closet and my hubby’s from top to bottom and truly getting rid of everything we no longer use. Kid you not there’s like 4 huge, black trash bags laying around our closet right now. I have made a list of shelters I want to give them to. Some are homeless, and others are shelters for abused women. I shared a bit about this on my IG page. I plan on dropping them off by end of the week. Another thing I thought of doing one morning, after I had literally just spent almost $500 bucks on just skin products and make up, is picking a mommy each month to give one of these products to. (not my products, but brand new ones like the ones I bought, for them). I picked mommies because I know first hand how hard it is to find any time to focus on you. So a small little gift like that could be the motivation or push they need to do something for them without feeling selfish or like they’ve put a hole in their wallet. Just something small that makes me feel good. I picked my mommy of the month today 🙂

In the future I plan on organizing mommy get togethers…kind of like spa days for mommies; manicures, pedicures, hair, make up, and a section for the kiddos to play with one another while professional sitters watch them. I think this would be so fun and a cute way to bond with other moms you may otherwise never met. I want to do this in different states nationally. I don’t know when exactly I’m going to get this done with all other things I got going, but I promise i will do it. Somehow.

So that’s kind of where I’m heading in 2015. Tomorrow I’m going to get started on a vision board. I’m a visual kind of girl. I need to see it, touch it, feel it and I start believing and making it happen. My last vision board was almost 2 years ago (here’s a post about it if you are interested). I am happy I accomplished almost everything on there. I got married, got a baby, got my dream home, dream car (although it used to be range rover and I changed it to G wagon), built my dream shoe closet, bought more shoes, travelled, donated, etc. Some things on there I didn’t get to. I think it’s because I no longer see them as important right now: like the AMEX black card….um really? The fu*k do I want that for? So silly stuff like that. Or the lambo. I want it still, yes. But not now. I got a one year old, and a -5 month old. Where am I going to fit them in that beautiful yellow precious little thing? So yes one day I’ll get it. Just not now. Now I have such different vision for my life. So my new vision board will help me put it all into perspective and it’ll be a daily reminder of what I’m aiming for every time I wake up!

Okay….I think this is by far the longest post yet. I never cease to amaze myself with the ability I have to ramble the F on! I’m sure I’ve lost 80% of you by now…but to the other 20% thank you for reading it. (wish me Happy Birthday on my comments so I know it’s real *wink*) And I recommend that you too start thinking about your life and your path; where you have been, where you are and where you want to be tonight, before you fall asleep. It’s good to face it all and maybe you’ll get some ideas or find the motivation to go for these things even harder than before. Sometimes all we need is a little push. If you need help with anything, email me. I might not respond right away,  but I will. Some day 🙂 Which reminds me, another thing I want to do this year is help my followers who have or run their own businesses at home get the word out there. So I want to promote their business by posting it on my page, maybe once a week. I’ll pick different ones each time. It has to be businesses I like or approve or, or that I would myself use. But that would be cool to kind of introduce their stuff to all other people that follow me. Perhaps they will like it too! And this way I can help some stay at home moms or even entrepreneur women get some free promotion for their page 🙂 And yes, it will be free. I know people charge for that, but again, I’m not in this to make a profit. My goal is to give this year!

The end. Hallelujah <3


PS. Happy Early Birthday to me! YAY. Getting old. WOMP WOMP

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  1. Meya says:

    Hi! I just want it to say that I love how BIG your heart is. You are an incredible woman! You amaze me everyday. I read the whole post and I was so into it. Yes, your life is amazing and all but what I love more is your personality. I love how sweet and nice you are. I’m sure 2015 has amazing things for you and your family! I can’t wait to see!!! Keep being awesome and congrats again on your baby boy!!!

  2. Hi doll I’m one of the 20% that read your entire pre-birthday blog. First of all congratulations on being one AMAZING lady you are truly an inspiration to so many including myself. I will say it over and over again I’m truly blessed to call you my friend… I will be by your side to applaud you and as a true friend to also say oh hell No… LOL We share alot of similarities kinda scary but the main connection is that were Real and in todays walk of life its more about convenience something you will never have to worry about with me. I can go on and on but bottom line you deserve everything you have and what’s to come. May God continue to bless you so you can continue to be a blessing to others.

    Love ya dearly!!!

  3. Evian says:

    happy birthday! I admire your outlook on life, how excited you are about changes and how much you love your family. People who talk shit to you are just miserable people. Just by reading your posts and seeing your Instagram pics I can tell that you’re a genuine person. You deserve everything great in your life. I hope you have an amazing birthday and I hope you accomplish everything you have set your heart on in 2015! God bless you darling!

  4. Kellyanne says:

    Happy Birthday God bless 🙂 hope you enjoy your day with your familt <3

  5. Elvira says:

    Happy Birthday! Many blessings your way! I really enjoyed reading your post. You are truly an amazing woman. May God bless you and your family and future endeavors 🙂

  6. Alexandria says:

    Happy Birthday (so you know it’s real)! I love everything you had to say. Can’t wait for the online children’s boutique! I have an almost 2 year old son and I love to dress him with some style. I’m really glad I read this. Makes me want to do my own vision board! Blessings to you and your family!

  7. Gerta says:

    Happy birthday beautiful young lady!! You are so inspirational. Love reading your posts & you deserve what you have. Gio eshte 1 mrekulli. Te uroj shendet & tu plotesofshin deshirat

  8. Laura says:

    Happy Birthday!!!! I enjoy reading your blog so much!!! You have such a big heart! You are a great person and mommy, congrats on your baby i too just found out today I’m expecting #2 I’m a little scared also because I’m obsessed with my 1 yr old.. She is my world and idk how I’m gonna share that time with 2 children… But well see lol I can’t wait to see your future accomplishments!! I’m excited for you.. Wish you the best!!

  9. Ana says:

    Happy birthday!!! And this made me cry! I’m thinker and all I’ve been thinking is my life, my son my health , my husband and what I want to do for 2015! Thank you for sharing and letting me know I’m not the only crazy thinker lol. Thank you thank you!

  10. Jennifer says:

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I just wanted to say that people like you help me maintain faith in humanity. What you’re willing to do for other people, especially mothers, without expecting anything in return is incredibly admirable. I am only 19 and in college (and childless lol); however, I feel like I familiarized with so much of what you had to say. Thank you for sharing your experiences, I believe they help even more than any giveaway you could do! May God bless you and your family, and may he give you many more years of health and happiness to share with your family. Enjoy your special day <3

  11. Jennifer says:

    Happy birthday egi!! Yes I read to the bottom and I loved all of it!! I take so much joy and peace from your posts, I lost my mother when I was 15 (three years ago) and you remind me so much of her, it’s very soothing for my heart 🙂 much love and keep being you! You’re amazing and I know you’ll rock 28!

  12. Michelle says:

    happy birthday! You are amazing and seriously inspirational, I love that your thoughts are deep, you struggle with your own thoughts and how to balance life , I have these moments when I’m driving and either happy, bawling my eyes out or content. I am expecting my first little boy in February and I can’t wait to see the experience of love for myself! Many blessings x0

  13. Daylin says:

    The world needs more women like you happy bday!!

  14. Arta says:

    First and foremost happiest birthday to an amazing online sole. Lol, although I don’t really know you I feel like I do from day one! Wish you all the happiness in this world. Lots of luck xoxoxox

  15. marissa says:

    Happy birthday beautiful girl!!! This was long, but very encouraging. I’m in the planning phase of launching my own business too, 2015 is going to be such a great year, I feel it. So cheers to us for making it happen! !

  16. Rema says:

    I love you!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I wish you nothing but the best in life and thank you for this post I will be really thinking tonight! Love you happy birthday!
    Ps your son is the cutest thing <3

  17. debahuti Mohanty says:

    Hi…. happy birthday. … loved this post…. I have always admired ur style of writing. … it connects… I am a regular follower of ur blog… though this is the 1st time I am writing a comment. …. I have 1 request. … could you please share your home pictures with us if that’s okay…. thanks….

  18. Stephanie says:

    im not going to lie I literally cried reading this, I know we live two completely different lives but I can 100% relate to you, I am too a stay at home mom, two boys one 9 whose in school and my little one who stays home with me all day who is 4, I too felt so empty at a point in my life when everyone around me had careers and putting their children in day care. I felt empty and worthless to the outside world but my kids made me feel like i was their everything so everything else didn’t matter. i started the #MomLife brand one full year ago (and thank you so much for supporting!) it has given me so much more purpose to the meaning. i went from stay at home mom to “on the go mom” with my little one with me to every trip to the print ship, post office ect. and i love it because i am able to spend time with my son while trying to build something for my children in the long run, although i am no where close to where i want to be. i know im on the right path, its given me passion and purpose for myself aside from being mommy while still being able to be a full time mom! and i truly appreciate people like you who genuinely have a kind heart. i started following you a little bit after you had Gio and i absolutely love seeing your relationship with Gio and i seeing how loving and caring you are as a mother you really exude the momlife forrreeaal! i know im rambling but this post just gave me so much life and motivation. Thank YOU! Happy Birthday i hope the best for you and i am so excited to see your next venture! i wish i could go with you to turkey to the shows that would be a dream come true for me, you are truly blessed and its clear you definitely deserve it!

  19. Michelle says:

    Happy birthday I’m a fan of your’s from being a mother to a wife and to be you! I’m 22yearold and a mother of 1year 7monthsold littlebit ahead of months of your huddle of joy! Im just amaze what life you have it feel it’s like perfect dream of a girl to have one day if they get married and have a baby at some point I admire you how you handle your life I wish I can be like that because inside me something still missing even though I have huddle of joy to complete but a woman something to find for myself and I hope you can give me advice what to do in also a housewife jobless I also enjoying the time with my baby but something is wrong maybe with me if what’s that I don’t know, I’m sorry for my grammar I’m not good in grammar totally I just did try my best to make a comment for your birthday I’m following you in Instagram you and you’re friend Jennifer stefano I’m a fan of you two Gob blessed congrats for second baby

  20. Kimberley says:

    Hi Eggy! Lol I just finished your post!!!! VERY long but I loved it ! Happy Birthday! I really thank you for sharing everything you do because I can imagine how busy you are! It’s truly amazing how generous you are because you honestly are not obligated to be even though some people think like oh people with the money should be doing this or that or saving the world! Always with an opnion of what you should do with your time and money. But I love how you CHOOSE to do this out of the goodness of your heart! Your an amazing women hope you know that because you really bring other women up not put them down. I’ve been following you for a long time since before you deleted instagram and I truly admire how much you have grown it’s amazing to see at such a young age

  21. Mackenzie says:

    Happy birthday love

  22. Roxy says:

    Happy birthday sweets! 🙂 May all your desires turn true this coming year 🙂
    P.s : Read the whole thing haha:) thanks for sharing, very encouraging <3

  23. Aydan Sully says:

    Yay for being part of the 20% club lol and of course happy birthday!! This post could have not come at a better time for me. I recently returned back to school and today’s assignment was to write a love letter to yourself and things you wish you could change in yourself and man oh man did you hit the nail on the head. I always said I wanted to start my own blog and my husband has been really encouraging but like you I tend to be really hard on myself and I never think it’ll be A success so I talk myself out of it. I want 2015 to be my year. I never made a vision board but thanks to you I think I am going to start one. Continue being your amazing self because you truly are inspirational 🙂 have a happy and healthy 28th year! I know only the best will come your way !!

  24. Lindsay says:

    Happy Birthday to you! I too have insomnia but mine is due to having a newborn. He’s been peacefully sleeping for 7 1/2 hours and here I am, wide awake. I just wanted to tell you that I appreciate how genuine and open you are with your followers/readers. I have enjoyed seeing your journey as a new mommy through your Instagram and am so happy that you don’t allow the negative comments detour you from sharing your life. I wish you a happy and blessed 28th year of life.

  25. Stephanie says:

    Happy Birthday!! I love reading your candid, honest, and REAL posts. You are wise beyond your 28 years. You’ve inspired me to write down some goals for 2015 myself. I am a new mom to my beautiful son Benjamin (10 weeks) it’s been a rocky road as he was born quite ill and has been hospitalized more than I want to recount in these 2.5 months but I’m trying to focus on the positive, put things into perspective, and really enjoy the good moments. At times my anxiety gets the best of me but I’m trying every day to overcome it. I really enjoy your pictures and posts and your positivity certainly rubs off on people like myself so thank you. Your outlook and creativity will take you far. I look forward to following your business venture and next chapter. And Congratulations on your 2nd pregnancy!

  26. Victoria says:

    Happy birthday! Have a wonderful and blessed day!! I’m a new mom and I love the posts of your family, your little one is absolutely adorable.

  27. Marissa says:

    Happy Birthday – here’s to a great year of growing, learning, and becoming more the person whom you want and are ment to be. I think I am like many who started reading your blog based upon your shoe collection. Over the past year I have witnessed the transition from the younger self to this beautiful, inspiring mother… I’m going to sound cheesy here but it really is amazing to witness first hand the type of change and personal growth you’ve made…I feel like I am going to ramble here so I will keep it short – thank you for being you and alonging your many followers into your life. Keep it up! May 2015 bring you love and happiness.

  28. Cadence Mercer-Curtis says:

    Happy Birthday! I follow you on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter and I read your blog regularly. You are an inspiration to me! I am 23 years old and about to have my Bachelor’s degree in Psychology….which doesn’t really get you anywhere except set you up for more school. I am expecting my first baby on January 22nd as well. I have reached out a couple of times for advice. Things like how to make a vision board and how to make goals to actually accomplish and succeed in acheiving. My fiance and I are struggling financially and are terrified about bringing new life into this world when supporting ourselves is a daily struggle. I read your posts and see how goal oriented you are and just ask for any help or advice you could give us in starting our new family and making sure our baby girl is provided for! Idc about things for me, we make do…but for her and all of the things babies need…it can be overwhelming!! I want the best for her and I want to start now at setting her up for success and etching out a path of confidence and happiness for her! Ah but here I go rambling on! Maybe I should start a blog. I’ve thought about it… I actually really want to, I just don’t know how. Maybe I’ll research and make a goal 🙂
    Thank you for keeping strong and continuing to post things that inspire others or even just serve as entertainment.
    Cadence Mercer-Curtis

  29. sylvia says:

    Happy Birthday Super Mom!! Hope your special day brings you all your heart desires and full of pleasant surprises **lovinghugs**
    Been following and reading everything about you for a year now,but this is my first comment 🙂

  30. indira says:

    I read about 75% of the blog and i relate to some of your thoughts. When my first born was born in 2010 i was 23 going on 24. I was so scared i had never held a baby so tiny only weighed 4lb 11 oz. When my husband and i took him home we were experiencing everything for the first time. I loved staying home for my maternity leave and i swore i would be the best stay at home mom but financially although i have a bachelors in psychology i had to work along with my husband to make ends meet. When i graduated in 2009 i swore a bachelors was a great degree to have a high paying job but its not. Today i work for headstart and im glad i get summers payed and get 4 months off in the year paid so i am glad i get to spend summers off with my babies. I now have a newborn baby 3 months. Before he was born i prepared my mind for those hard day’s of no sleep knowing i had to return to work. Theres days i wish i could sleep in but i say fuck it lets be positive more time i get to spend with my babies. People say sleep when they sleep. Ummmm so who will clean my home. So when they are down i get my duties done not as much as i would of like but i have learned to be less OCD which is my stressor. I have let go of things like trying to look cute for the world or husband cute i mean hair done face with makeup i know he thinks im much prettier with bare face and ive learned to love that face but i do get ready when we are going out. Well enough its 5:45 and i got mommy duties. Lol bye

  31. Yesenia says:

    Happy birthday! I hope you have a great one and enjoy it with your loved ones. I love reading your blogs! You’re such an inspiration. This post in particular really stood out to me. I am grateful that you share all your experiences with us. I feel like I can relate a lot to being a stay at home mom. I also sometimes feel like I need to do more. I’m happy that you will start your own online business and will be sharing information with us. Thank you for being such an amazing inspiration.

  32. marcela says:

    Happy birthday . You have a heart of gold ! Thank you I needed to read something like this ! Many blessings !!

  33. Ola says:

    Gezuar Ditelindjen edhe 100 te tjera. What a great read and I feel like you just spoke my thoughts out there. Good luck in accomplishing your goals. You will do great. Thank you for being such an inspiration at such a young age.

  34. I wish you the best moj Egi, srsly eventhough i might be 18 i love reading your posts. I have been following you since your old ig for like a year then you closed it and i am so happy to see you change and open your heart more to us. Hopefully one day i can be as strong and mature as you. Love your heart, your family is more than lucky to have you. Puc ♥

  35. Morgan says:

    A children’s boutique sounds like an exciting way to start the new year! I’ve enjoyed watching your family grow with Gio and the kind heart you share with so many people.

    May God bless you in this new year and have a very happy birthday!


  36. Happy Birthday Hun! A lot of what you said I can really relate to (as always lol)! Everytime I read a post like this from you, I feel like it’s me talking to me!
    Hope you have an amazing day and all the best with your new venture! xx

  37. Glenda says:

    Eso. Happy Birthday- love your blog. You go me thinking about my life and where I and where I want to be.
    Good luck and God bless

  38. Emily says:

    You’re such a beautiful person inside and out. May God bless you and your family! I am also 28 years old and a mommy of a one year old baby girl. I would love to be a stay at home mom also but I am a first grade teacher and I love my job. Those first graders give me life and teach me so much about life that it would be hard for me to stop working. You are blessed to be able to stay at home with Gio. I would love to be able to stay home and raise my daughter until she is five then go back to teaching but the bills will not pay themselves. I want to be able to give my daughter everything I didn’t have growing up. To hear your story is so touching, your blessed to be able to stay home 🙂 keep enjoying baby Gio and your new bundle of joy once it arrives. Thanks you for sharing. I have also lost myself once I became a mommy it’s been 6months since I’ve done my hair and I used to be the girl who goes every 6 weeks

  39. shannond says:

    First off Happy Birthday! I’m in my 20s but I’m not a mom yet, but reading your blog is really inspiring your doing what makes you and your family happy and its okay to make mistakes !

  40. Sabrina says:

    You have such a sweet genuine spirit. I love how you are with your son. Thank you for sharing with us. Happy Birthday!!

  41. Ashley says:

    Happy birthday!!!!! I must say I admire you I wish I could only put my thought and feelings into words the way you do. I absolutly cannot wait for your boutique and loved the idea bringing all us moms together that follow you that love our squisheys as much as you love your! I wish you nothing but the best in 2015 and years to come

  42. Nicole says:

    Happy Birthday Egreis!!!! Wishing you health and happiness for 2015!!!

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  44. Diana says:

    Bless your heart! I love reading your blog and I definitely fall in that 20% who kept reading till the end 🙂 I have been following you for a year now and it’s truly amazing to see how much you have grown and evolved. You’re an amazing wife, mother, and friend that many of us mommies can relate to. I love reading your blog because you nail it to the point of what the importance of life really is. There is no greater blessing than finding true love and becoming a mother, and it’s wonderful to see how much love you have for your growing family. You truly set an amazing example for the meaning of being a mother. It is a breath of fresh air to see such a beautiful soul such as yourself who appreciates and values life and all you’ve been blessed with, not taking a single moment for granted. Whether it being those stressful moments as a first time mother or that precious moment Prince Gio took his first steps, you live each and every moment for your family it is truly admirable. As I read your blog and posts, I find myself relating to you in the sense that we live for our children and can’t seem to detach ourselves from them lol. My husband and I have yet to find some alone time for ourselves because I can’t seem to be away from my 5 month old baby not even for an hour, I know it may sound crazy but I can’t even go shopping alone knowing I will be away from my baby girl for hours so I bring her along lol. I had those same fears you did as a first time mommy but they all vanished because I know I am giving my dsughter the best of me and putting her first before anyone, even my poor husband and I do feel bad, but luckily I’ve been blessed with an amazing husband who totally understands. There is truly no greater love than the love we have for our children. I thank you for all the amazing advice and tips you give us all everyday, I appreciate it. God will continue blessing you because he knows what a heart of gold you have. Thank you once again love and I can’t wait for your launch of children’s boutique, it is gonna be amazing! And if I may suggest, it would be awesome to see varieties of clothing from other countries in your boutique. I find myself looking for instance, at European fashion and I love it! Best wishes on all your business ventures, I cannot wait! Xoxo 🙂

  45. mavv says:

    Happy Birthday:) u r an amazing women. keep rocking!

  46. Mariam says:

    Hi there!!

    This was a great post! Thanks for being to candid and real! I’ve also been doing 2015 planning and it’s really exciting! I battle career/future full time mommy role as well and feel like I can…we can do both! Congrats on the new business idea!

    I have a nutrition blog (work with mommys all the time)and would love to work with you on getting up a promotion post! I’ll be emailing you!

    My blog is

    Happy birthday!!!

    To great health

  47. LaShundra says:

    Happy Birthday!! You’re freaking awesome!! *kisses*

  48. Alba says:

    Gezuar ditelindjen! I heart you

  49. Jika says:

    Happy birthday. God bless you and your family. You are an amazing woman. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I hope you have a wonderful day and that the year ahead is filled with much love, many wonderful surprises and gives you lasting memories that you will cherish in all the days ahead. Happy Birthday.

  50. Shari says:

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  51. Rita says:

    MU befsh 100 vjec dhe deshirat e tua te realizuara :* :*

  52. marina says:

    Well,a wish for a happy bday from greece.Start reading out of curiosity after following your posts for quite a time in Instagram and i am very glad i finished reading and put my self in the 20% list cause after finishing reading your thoughts i was left with a big smile , for my personal reasons, on my face!!!so thanks for puting your self out there and giving us the chance to see that we are not alone!!! Best wishes once more for you and your blessed family!! 😀

  53. Eri says:

    gezuar ditelindjen! Your post makes me realize that I need to start evaluating things in my life and take more time to realizing what I want and need to achieve in 2015. Te kam zili kur shkruan Edhe pershkruan gjith keto fjali- kaq bukur. Makes me want to sit down and do it for myself but I feel like I never know how to sit down and just write it all down- like I’m not decisive. Anyway hope you had a great birthday! Best of Luck with pregnancy #2 beautiful!

  54. Evelyn says:

    Happy Birthday! I’m one of the 20% who read your entire blog and really enjoyed it. I had the midnight insomnia when I was pregnant too and constantly had a million things going through my mind. Anyways I have to go pump lol bye

  55. Elvira says:

    Happy Birthday! Many blessings your way! You are truly an amazing woman! May God bless you and your family! ! XOXO

  56. Joelle says:

    You are an amazing person, and I’m so glad I come across your page. You inspired me alot. Happy Birthday Beautiful many blessing. xoxox

  57. Andria says:

    Happy birthday Egi! Wishing you all the very best on your birthday and always. Thank you for your advice and for being so positive! You are a beautiful person inside and out! You have a beautiful family. Congratulations on the new baby 🙂

  58. Alexiz says:

    Happy birthday,
    Never change, never stop writing & never stop inspiring im 23 years old with a 5 year old daughter with autism and a 6 month old, you give me strength and inspiration for my future! I’ve foolowed you ever since you were on Instagram with no kids, I don’t know you but just by following you on Instagram I’ve seen how much you have evolved, your amazing never change xoxo ps. Just know that with these post you somehow make changes in people’s lives, I’m starting my vision board
    Stay awesome

  59. Reyna Benoit says:

    Happy Birthday Beautiful!!! I just had a birthday myself (1/6) and let me tell you we are not getting old we are “Getting better” **wink wink** I hope you have a very blessed day on your special day and always, thank you for being so genuine and up lifting. Just from reading your blogs and following your IG I feel like I know you!

    ps I was one of the 20% who read the whole thing and I have to say that I just love the positive, humble, down to earth person that you are! Thank you for being you! Have a Beautiful day!! xoxo

  60. Fanny says:

    I love it. Your such an inspiration

  61. Jaime says:

    I have to say I enjoyed every min of reading your post! i think your an amazing inspiration to all moms esp new ones! I am a stay at home mom for 18 years and can relate to everything you wrote even to today I still don’t find me time lol as a parent esp a full time stay at home mom they days go so fast and you question your self did I eat today lol my babies are grown up and I still don find time it’s just non stop. I am glad i still haven’t went to the skin care counter lol heck just started wearing lip stick a few years ago lol some place along the lines I lost my identy and nothing was more important then the kids and there everyday I like you have a dream of this and that but it never made it off the drawing board well back when we lived pay check to pay check but it had to be as I wanted to be with my kids all the time I still hate being away if I am I call and call my poor son is 18 and still can’t escape my million calles. I want to let you know don’t stress I’ve the new baby everything always works out when I had my second son( wow a hand full from day one

  62. Luz says:

    I just finished reading your post and.. Wow! You’re an amazing human being. At the beginning of your post I felt like I was reading about a totally different person cause you don’t look like you say you were, you have truly changed and have gone from immature outcomes of life to a well planned out, I want to be the best I can be, not just for yourself but to be a great role model for your little ones. I enjoyed the whole thing, I must admit that this is my first time reading your blog and that I’ve been following for awhile just to get inspired by your outer beauty and get ideas on how to be a mommy. I’m 3 years older than you (happy belated birthday) but, I am no where to being content with what I’ve done with my life, I envy you (the good envy). Dont get me wrong, I’m extremely blessed, I have a 2.8 month old girl and have another one coming in 8 days

  63. Jaely jimenez says:

    Omg this post made me want morneof life!!! You definitely moved me!!!! Your positivity and how you give back is awesome!! Happy birthday!!!!! Thanks for being such an inspiration!!!

  64. Tere says:

    “Emptiness ” that is exactly what I feel… I am in the process of becoming a full time mother and a part of me feels empty doing it… But when I am away from my son and husband working eight to five I miss my son who is only 4 years old sooooooo much it hurts…

  65. I loved reading this. Just what I needed to see when times are getting frustrating for me. I just started my own business with my mom at the end of last year. I also graduated college at the end of last year. I’m a stay at home mom of a 2 year old as well. Sometimes it gets very overwhelming for me. It’s difficult to juggle everything but I do it all for her. I want her to see you can be a good mother, chase your dreams & still put effort into looking presentable. My mom did it, and I know I can too! Thanks for inspiring me today!

  66. Daniela says:

    Great post!

    You’re a such adorable person and Momy!! I follow you on Instagram and love you and Gio!
    You’re a very humble person, with a giant heart ❤️❤️

    Kiss from Georgia-Usa

    Ah Happy Birthday (belated)

  67. Meryem says:

    I realy loved reading this blogpost! It was deep, relatable en just showed youre big hurt and i also loved how honest you are! I’m a mommy of a 8 month old baby girl en you inspired me to do some deep thinking about me en about my life.. Thanks for that! Im following you for a long time now but i never comment.. So keep on the good work! Lots of love from Amsterdam

  68. Olympia says:

    Happy 2015! So happy to hear of what your plans are for the months ahead. I look forward to your ideas, you are truly an inspiration. Today my son turned 1, and I have been watching Gio’s progress. I so don’t know how to dress baby boys so I am excited to see what you will have on your site. Safe travels to Turkey and good Luck!! Find lots of cute things for boys. I’m also excited about the fact that you plan on promoting other mommies and their businesses. I am definitely interested in you helping me out of possible. Keep up the positivity. It is truly contagious! All the best to you and your family.

  69. Diana says:

    Happy (belated) Birthday Egreis!!!
    I hope you had a great one, your new shoes are definitely beautiful. I am one of the 20% who read all the way through and I really enjoyed it. i have been following your instagram account for about a year now, mainly because Gio is so adorable and I love kids, so whenever he pops up on my news feed I immediately get a smile on my face. Anyways, reading through your blog I can just really relate to you, I feel like we might have had many of the same goals and ideals about life. I am 1,5 year younger than you, I kinda freaked out when I found out as I think you are so much more mature than me, but then I thought, well I have a year and a half to make it to the same stage. Now I’m the one rambling. What I really wanted to say is that this post was great and inspirational. I am in the middle of creating my blog and today I was feeling a little gloomy and I started to not believe in myself, i was thinking things like “who would want to read your opinion” or “I don’t know anything anyways, my blog will be a total flop”. But now reading this post I kinda found myself thinking, of course I can do it and some people will find it interesting, and the ones who don’t, well they can just bug off. I want to write my blog because I want to share the things I find interesting, my blog will mainly be about polo (the sport, which is a total obsession and passion of mine) and traveling (another obsession and also my job, I am a stewardess), I hope to connect with other people who find those things interesting too, but at the end of the day it is my way of being creative and my excuse for being a total nerd on my computer watching polo matches and reading city guides and then sharing them in my own way. So yea, thanks for restoring my confidence! Your goal of giving in 2015 is definitely already being accomplished.

  70. Nur says:

    Wow! I read all of these and I’m shocked you coming to Turkey!! Will you come to Istanbul? I want to meet you and Gio 🙂 could you arrange a meeting for your fans in here Turkey?! Love you xx.

  71. Hi, I’m new to your blog & I love what I’ve read already!! My teenage daughter followed you on IG and show it to me, I’ve been in love with your page every sense. Being a single mother who is only a few months away from my youngest going to college and looking at a empty nest. I’ve really begone to look at what I like to do. For years I could tell you my girls (now 18 & 21) favorite color, their favorite food and favorite thing to do. But somehow I got lost. I’ve forgotten who I am. I’ve picked back up Sarah Ban Breathnanch’s Simple Abundance all in hopes of “finding myself” I use to laugh at that and think only rich spoiled people got to runaway an find themselves.. I get it now. I’ve been homeless , bankrupt, an very ill in the past 2 years. Most of it caused by a very deep an real depression that I sunk into after my daughter was jumped by a group of girls.. It was easily one of the worst days in my life, which is still bothersome, but I now understand it an I’m able to get help. I’m writing because your entry today on IG made me want to dream again. It made me want to get up and shake off fear and reach for a better life. I have a long way to go but it’s ok. I’m willing to walk into the exciting world of life and find my place. I’m even happier that we are Besties (even if its only in my head

  72. Karina says:

    Happy Birthday

  73. Karina says:

    I Love reading your Blogs it feels like we’re friends but we didn’t know it.

  74. Lorena Mem says:

    Me pak vonese por HAPPY BIRTHDAY EGI ( dhe po arrira deri ne fund) je me e mira ☺☺

  75. Maimuna says:

    You have grown so much from what I can read from this post. You are so true to yourself and full of positive engery and spirit. I wish and pray that all your dreams and aspiration come ture. You enjoy you beautiful children and all that live has and will throw at you. Happy birthday again. From one of you mummy followers on Instagram.

  76. Shannise says:

    I just want to thank you so much for just being upfront and honest. I love how authentic you are.Im 27. I’m going into 2015 as a first time stay at home mom and I’m also on my second pregnancy. I kept thinking what I am I going to do with my self. I think I might also start a blog as well as I’m starting a online business for hair but still working that out as well. I just thank you again and you are a true inspiration and I look forward to hearing more from you!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

  77. Tara says:

    Happy birthday!! I’m sure you get a lot of the comment things all the time. But might as well say hi! I stumbled across your IG page when I was pregnant with my now 10 month old son Jack. Gio is a couple months older than him so it was awesome to follow you to see what I had in store for me. After reading this blog, I see that we are very much alike! I am also a first time mom at 27, turned 28 in May. My husband has two other children from a previous marriage that I love very much and am lucky that Jack has the awesome sisters that he does. Also like you, (I think) was kinda crazy in my early twenties. Experimented with styles, people, interests, etc. And the people who knew me 2-3 years ago would not recognize the me today. Yes, I still have the same heart. But my goals, interests, things that used to bother me are very much different. Reading this blog was like a breath of fresh air. I am not alone!! I also went from having my own job, my own house, car, everything myself to no job, married, two step children and a baby. Seriously 2014 was THE hardest transition EVER. But I don’t regret it one bit. I’m still trying to find my way through this life of mine, would love to find some way to work from home but I guess I need to find out what I’m good at. Or what I want to do… Being a Gemini does not help!! Well, maybe you’ll read this, maybe not. But happy birthday!! And if you ever come to Colorado hit me uppp!!!! My name is Tara, @tarachunkoff on IG… Thanks for speaking your mind and being YOU. You do more than you know. ; ) xo

  78. Foxyquant says:

    Happy birthday! I have been following you on IG for a while and this is the first blog post of yours that I’ve read; I loved it! All of it 🙂 I think you’re idea for the new venture is wonderful and it’s refreshing to see someone being so thoughtful about her life and actions and for being so candid with all of these emotional things that many of us struggle with in our own ways. You’re a beautiful and positive woman and I look forward to reading more. Xo

  79. Tina says:

    ” happy belated bday ;)” haha, I absolutly love the way you express your self on your blog, you type what’s on your mind and it’s amazing! It’s crazy how much you are so open about your life and help so many people out there. It really makes you think on what the future holds. Looking forward to more blogs xo

  80. Jacqueline says:

    Happy birthday pretty lady!! Your posts are great and Im glad to hear you are happy and healthy!

    You’ve definitely accomplished so much and you got a fan in me, even though you had one in me before (during your affiliate marketing days)!! 😉

    This was one of my fav. Posts.

    Much love and happiness <3

  81. Kim says:

    Happy birthday for the other day! I read the whole post and you have brought me so much inspiration! I really would love to maybe have a talk with you about things in my life and whatnot as I’ve been through a lot like you have and I’m young and in my early 20s and it’d be nice to talk to someone who has been in similar situations as me and maybe give me some hope for my future? I’d love to hear more about you as well. This message probably makes no sense right now haha. But I hope I can hear from you and maybe we could have a bit of a email chat between each other? You are such an inspiration and give me so much hope. Thank you! Hope to hear from you soon (:

  82. Jimsara says:

    Happy Birthday,I know im late but I’m catching up on your blog now 🙂

  83. Aline says:

    OMG! What a delight! I loved reading your post, and I felt like, finally someone who feels like me… After working 7 days a week with my husband, cutting down to 6, getting preggers and still working like crazy, I am jobless. I lost both the time I used to be stuck to my hubby and the job I so much loved and controlled (here goes the control freak in me).
    Now, I see things have changed, the love for my daughter is so amazing, and the offer of a nanny by my family to get the load off my shoulders is just unthinkable. I couldn’t even imagine having a second baby, they’d be camping on my living room by now trying so hard to help.
    I am amazed on how different moms, of different backgrounds, in different places can go through the same difficulties and mental challenges, it’s like every mom is connected on this amazing network and we can finally relate.
    I started my website in order for me to feel productive and mostly because I want to improve things for my baby, husband and all. I wish he didn’t have to work so much, wish he could spend more time with us and watch our baby grow like I’m able to and that’s why I want to make it happen, so I can pull my own weight.
    I wish you the best on your life, may your new baby bring even more joy into your life, may Gio grow up to be an amazing big bro and your new business venture to be successful! I think we all need a good kids website, I believe it’s stupid and naive to think that it’s now okay to share ideas, because there is room for everyone, if you have a good product, that’s what matters, just gotta market it right and you’re golden.
    I already wished you a HB on IG, but happy belated one anyway.
    Keep posting please!! It’s always fun to read your stories and thoughts.

  84. Vaniah says:

    Happy Belated Birthday!!! You are a beautiful soul, always remember that all things happen for a reason. That is what keeps me grounded and focused when everything sometimes feels off balance and when things are unbelievable. I wish I could sit and have a play date with you and just chat I feel we have a lot in common just on different spectrums lol. I can’t by $500 in make up but me and my husband do give back and help those around us. I have been in many places in my life and grown over the years I will be 28 this summer and the women I was yesterday is never the same the next day. I look at my family and I know that my purpose in life is in front of me. Stay blessed and hope to meet you one day.

  85. Precious says:

    Happy Belated Birthday Egreis… I read to the end 🙂 This is my first time on your blog and I feel so pumped and inspired already. May God bless you and yours as continue to spread happiness. Cheers

  86. Shell says:

    Happy birthday! With age comes wisdom. You are certainly an inspiration. Good luck with your new business

  87. Theresa-Marie says:

    Happy Birthday! This post was very inspirational, and Im glad to be in that 20% you didnt lose! I have been following you since before you had Gio&when you left instagram I was sad but going from a full-time nurse to stay at home mom, I now understand why. I have always been a fan, especially when you would write back to me in your comments 🙂 I wish you nothing but the best, you deserve everything you have and will receive!!! –

  88. Elsa says:

    Ufffff lol just finish reading your post wowww was long but love it thank you for sharing your thoughts I m glad I was the 20% you r so funny. Thanks for offering you help for others you have a sweet and generous heart

  89. Nela says:

    Happy birthday! Love how express yourself in the blog. You have a generous heart!

  90. Suzi says:

    You are a blessing to your family

  91. Suela says:

    Happy belated Birthday my dear Egi! Just today I had the chance to read this post. It’s wonderful. It looked to me as I was having a conversation with you, and I was listening to all these things that you had to say. I find myself on a lot of these things, and I truly understand you. I wish you luck on accomplishing your new vision board ( I haven’t had the chance to write down my goals for 2015 yet ). I’m starting a new venture too this year. Have fun in Turkey and hope you get good contracts there. xo

  92. Paola says:

    You totally had me at the 20% of reading the entire post, and loved it!! I must admit I’m one to not read for so long, as my attention very easily distracts with other things to do, but I felt I can relate to so much and also got some great motivation from it. Wishing you safe travels and much joy in your new project or shall I say Projects 😉 meanwhile, thanks for sharing lots of your personal experience, it helps many of us to know that we can relate 😉 Happy 2015- Xoxo

  93. Myri says:

    It was long lol but It was so interesting I would buy your book if your wrote one! You give me so much motivation to keep going as I hear you I feel the same way I want to do more and be a rear mommy and wife but sometimes it’s hard for me cuz am sick I jave fibromyalgia and o I’ve my 6 year old son and am 4 months pregnant I have little energy to do much but I try everyday I wish I can be normal and be healthy and to do so much more I work a freelancer too right now once a week to feel productive it’s a hard at times cuz I have to push product to sell I work for it cosmetics I go to ultas stores

  94. Stephanie Womack says:

    Happy (belated) Birthday!!! I am one of the 20% that read your entire post and must say that I loved and agreed with what you said about growing up and older and knowing who you are. I’m 33 now (28 aint’t old lol) and feel like I’m finally turning into an adult and know what I want my life to look like. When I lost my job in August I said I’m not just going to apply for random jobs and take the first thing I get. I decided I want to eventually become a college president. So I targeted my search to colleges. Guess what?? Not even three months of being unemployed did I get two interviews at two BIG colleges but I was offered both jobs. While I was ecstatic to be interviewed I was prepared to accept one position over the other. Well fate had other plans and I could not be happier. I was offered the position I didn’t think I wanted first and took it because I didn’t know if the other one would come through. It was the greatest thing that could ever happen to me!!! I am so happy here and hope to stay here for as long as possible and complete a second master’s and PhD. So maybe in 18 years when you are sending your kids to college I will be their president. 🙂 So I say all that to say that following you on IG and seeing how positive you are and how you plan things out rather than letting them happen has inspired me to lead the same type of life. Have a great year of giving!

  95. Edith says:

    All I can say is WOW, I wish that I could have your imagination and creativity that you have. Good luck and I like the fact that you are willing to share everything.

  96. mila says:

    happy birthdayyy!! Egi,thanks for being such a big inspiration ,thanks for making me think and reflect,thanks for everything you share,,,,, you re a GREAT person . im sooo glad i ve meet you personally (at tirana meet and greet) and hopefully we ll meet again. you have a big soul. God bles you,huuuugs

  97. Margarita Stewart says:

    Happy birthday!!!!! This was very deep but very inspiring! Thank you for always keeping it 100!

  98. Izzy says:

    I just want to say I read the whole thing and never got lost! 🙂 I understood every single thought in it! I just want to say you are amazing. I am a stay at home mom and I too feel as Im not accomplished. I was also that woman who wanted to do everything herself and be “miss independent”. So I started a small shop online. I think of ways I could turn it into what my original idea was at the beginning, but that will take time and resources I don’t have at the moment. At time i feel lost, I beat myself because I’ve invested so much time and money into it and have yet to see to see the fruits. But at the end, Like you, I remind myself why I started luvdub and where I plan to be. I did it becuase I want that validation feeling that I can be a great stay at home mom and also Have something to show. I brain storm and talk to myself so much. I feel like a failure and can’t seem to figure it out, but I starting to have confidence in myself and that I will that successful business woman I’ve always said I was going to, but not forgetting To be the best mom in the world to my lil girl First!!!! I LOVED YOUR POST. It was my thought in your words. Im glad we can see a more human side to you !!! I love it!

  99. stella says:

    I just got to read your blog.’ve got a very good heart…God bless you continually.

  100. edith says:

    Hope your birthday was great. Thank you for sharing. I love reading your blogs. You are such an inspiration. I feel like I can totally relate to you. You are seriously that big sister I wish I would have had. Gio is beautiful. You have a amazing family. Wish you much success in your new business.

  101. Keny Diaz says:

    You are an incredible woman! You amaze me with every blog. Your life is amazing and blessed, but I cannot get over that you are not shallow or think highly of yourself simply because financially you seem more than stable. I admire your outlook on life. Let me tell you i’m not much of a talker because for one i suck at expressing myself with words but i read your blog or follow you on instagram and its like BAM you say exactly what i thought of something or of life. Thank you so much for being selfless and encouraging to many of us. Hope to meet you some day!
    Your Vegas fan

  102. Salwa says:

    Hey Love. Hope your doing well? You inspire me to prove myself I could become a better mom. I’m 20 with a 7 month old premie she’s a baby girl, her name is Layali. She was born with an illness called Bladder exstrophy in which she was born with her bladder out, you’d never know that just by looking at her beautiful loving face but her scars have a story to it all. At being 4 months in reality (1 month) she had to go into 3 major surgeries in 1 day but I thank God she made it through it all. She’s better than ever now and as you always say I DON’T WANT MY BABY TO GROW SO FAST. Your blog has comfort me in every possible way I read it all the time it actually makes me feel happy I can actually relate to so much. At times I feel like I know you so good and I haven’t even met you. Your such a creative and wonderful person, very loving ! I’m happy to hear about your business and I wish you nothing but happiness and success. I’m also willing to help in anyways I am a stay home mother looking to have something fun to do while I take care of my baby. If you ever need anything just let me know here’s my email-

    1. Egreis Gjergjani says:

      Hi Love, where do you reside?


  103. Shireen says:

    I always read your blog posts, but this post really struck me because I thought I was the only one who felt that way when filling out forms about “occupation.” I never imagined I would be a stay at home mom, I always had big dreams (still do) and not knowing what to put, not having a title makes me feel unimportant. I have 3 little ones, who at one point were 3 under 3. (currently 4, 2.5 and 1.5) and by the time I had my third, I had completely stopped working because they needed me more at home and I’m too much of a control freak to let anyone else raise my children. I’m completely obsessed with them, and yet always feel guilty that something about just being a stay at home mom doesn’t fulfill me 100%. I’ve always been jealous of women who feel completely satisfied just being wives and mothers. I’m like you, I want to scrub my floors, cook for my family and run the world also. I actually am just starting my own blog ( OR soon to be as an outlet for how I feel, hoping other moms can relate or at least make me feel like I’m not the only one, so thank you for being honest. It’s nice to know there are other women who feel torn between wanting to be 100% for their kids and also need to do something else to make them feel like a part of this world. I sincerely hope we all find our own ways to grow and accomplish our goals and do whatever makes us feel happy and fulfilled.
    <3 Shireen

    1. Egreis Gjergjani says:

      I’ll be sure to read it love!

  104. Nirka says:

    Oh boy, reading your post at 5am in the hopes my 2 years old girl doesn’t wake up so I can still study for the LSAT is no game!!! ( I wake up at 4:30am to study for the law school entrance exam while my daughter sleeps… I
    guess we share the insonmia) Yet, I am so glad I did. Your post is looong as hell, but somehow I saw parts of me in every word you wrote. I could see my trail of thoughts in yours, my expressions and even the same writing style. Needless to say that I enjoyed and felt identified with your post, as a woman, twenty something peer and specially as a “full-time-no-need-help-I-need-to-cherish-my-daughter’s-every-minute” type of mom . Thanks for making this AM fun and deep.
    P.S. 1. This is the first I read, ever.
    2. Hi, I’m Cuban, living in the states. May I just say, you have followers from everywhere.

    1. Egreis Gjergjani says:

      Thank you so much Nirka!!

  105. Sally Salado says:

    Happy Birthday!!! Probably late by now, but I just love reading your blog posts!!! I’ve been following your life (kind of weird when you say it out loud) since before you were pregnant and I can tell you’ve changed, but in the best way possible!! Your heart is so warm and the love for your family is inspirational. Truly an inspiration to many of us. I can’t wait for your online boutique to open. Though children are still years away from now, I will get inspiration from your shop.

    Hope all is well, sending my love from the tiny city of Gainesville, Florida 🙂

    Sally Salado

    1. Egreis Gjergjani says:

      Thank you so much Sally!

  106. Alexa says:

    Hey Egreis,
    Let me just say how eloquent you are with words. I could feel the emotion and honesty. You have the right mindset and are turning the negative thinking you have into positive. Being in touch with your inner thoughts and feelings and being able to use mindfulness to better yourself is exactly how it’s done. For this I praise you; you are stronger then you know and more and more you will see this.
    Thank you for sharing it with the world and letting us into your life. Your family is beautiful – may you continue to be very blessed. I’m hoping for that one day; if I am given such a blessing. It’s been 3 miscarriages in the last year and quite discouraging. Trying to see the silver lining, trying to remain hopeful, trying to find happiness, trying to put my heart back together but it’s been a challenging time. Of course like everything in life, there are good days and bad but the empty void and inner sadness still remains.
    Here is to 2015- May it be one filled with love, health, happiness, success, achievements, doing good into others for and our dream come true. All the best to you! Xo

    1. Egreis Gjergjani says:

      Hi Alexa,

      I’m praying for an AMAZING year for you darling!! You deserve it wholeheartedly!!!

  107. Aga says:

    Happy Birthday girl!! Thank you for being you! You are one amazing lady!

  108. Stavroula says:

    Happy happy 🙂

  109. onebrilliantdr says:

    You’re amazing, God Bless you and you’re beautiful family, thank you so very much for sharing your life, lessons and kindness. Happiest happy birthday Doll 🙂

  110. Sarah says:

    I just love you as a person! You are so genuinely beautiful. It is extremely inspirational to read your post. I took a break from all things Internet. Happy Belated Birthday! I hope you had a wonderful time. I have been following you on social media from the beginning. You are just so freaking awesome. Keep doing what your doing. Your post have helped me get to the next day. I feel some type of way and I’m led to one of your post and it tells me to keep going. You have been a blessing to me. Thank you for being who you are!!